I can't fight this feeling anymore '',3

Hi guys. Missed me? I sure have been missing you. But allot of things are happening in my life. There are allot of tests at the moment, they really are trying to kill us. I got my first A on a science test I be a smart person ftw! School is just the same. Allot of stress, not knowing wether I chose the right line or what, but I think I did. I want to be a baker or something like that But we just have to wait and see ^_^

We have a healer in our class Some of you might say; "a healer? wtf? He's just a fraud! A 16 year old cant be a healer!" Well, he is. He has been reading in my palms, healing my back and neck pain and driven out spirits that has been haunting my soul and eating my energy. Everything that he's seen about my past and about my personality has been right. Things no one else knew, he have been finding out just by reading in my palm or touching my shoulder. At first he really freaked me out, but since I love the paranormal and supernatural I have really started to believe in this guy. He's kinda my mentor now. If somethings up or somethings bothering me, when I'm in a strange mood and don't know what it is, I just go to him and asks if he can find out what's wrong with me. He knows my soul better than I know it. It's sorta creepy, but also kinda cool.

Much is happening in my personal life, so talking to a psychiatrist and a healer has been much help for me. I'm trying to change, be a better person, but by doing this major change to myself there has been allot of things that I don't handle that well anymore. I'm more fragile and moody than before. I'm very emotional at times and I can suddenly just burst into tears, now I don't need to listen to a song or see a sad movie. I just start to cry uncontrollable or I click. I get this anger attack and I snap at everything and everyone. It's really stressful and I'm trying to handle it the best way, but I'm clueless of what to do. So I guess I'll just take it one step at a time.

I'm really out of my mind these days. I'm confused. Disoriented, I do things I shouldn't be doing. I keep prioritizing the wrong things. I keep making the wrong decisions. I don't really know how to live my life, I just live it. Hoping that I will survive each day the best way I can.